hello my deal palls in extra pounds !

I´m sorry to not updating here, i have been so busy with my university studying and haven´t have even time to write in my blog at night,

and also no time to starting my training !

so what is left of me ?

Just saying Happy 4shanbe soori my friends !

see ya soon online with my plan for training.

hej allihoppa !

Yeap,i´m back, thnx to you who add my link,

I was at a cruse with my sys and her bf and 6 other funny guys, it was a nice tripp, much better than what i expected.
The bad thing was my call to my bf and the result ! the drund and sad crying girls at 2am ! anyway, that night was nothing compare to tonight, It´s 04 am, im still awake, haven´t done my repport yet, have been crying all night, reading our 3 years of emailing and love letters and our history, where we came and how thing changeds to this shit.. that he talk to me with such a cold voice.

So the result ! i´ve been eating half of my M&M smarties and my Kinder´ milk chockolate ! sorry i ai´t able to do any thing about it !

But good news is i will start my work out in this week. And now i came up with an idea : Chockolate is just for weekend  ! good ? yeaaaaaaaa

بزن قدش پس :)) بنظر میاد اینجا طرفدار فارسی خوندن خیلی بیشتره پس از این به بعد فارسی بیشتر می نویسم

همگی دعا کنید که این قصه لاو لایف ما به خیر بگذره ! انشالا

برم ادامه گزارش لعنتی

hello my weight or diary blog !

I am so tired, mostly because i slept 04:00 am last night, done absolutely nothing for my project, and now, i feel so week.

I had my Deutsch class until 20:30, at the end of the class, i remembered that baby love has a dance class some place near my university, the thought just made me bright and sharp.

I made my mind, i literally jumped out of calls , running to my car, asked few people around about the road, and just drove to maybe i could find him ! Maybe because i had no idea, where the place was, which name the class or salon had etc !

Just with my intuition, and what i call, " what is meant to happen will always happened" i stopped in few places, and by the time i was there, i just simply heard a quick sound track of music and guessed he would be there !

I waited outside of the back door ! It was just unbelievable for myself also that after 2 minutes that i was waiting behind the close door, under snowing sky, he came out of the saloon and i just knocked the door ! He and his face showed the chock of his life... and i smiled happily

I drove him back to his home, on our way we just said how lovely the whether is when its chaotic and snowing :D we both love this kind of snowing ! and he tried to tell me about his weeks, i just listed, he asked if my school does well and i said yes !

And now, after i dropped him, even he asked me to come up for cup of tea, and i couldn'taccept, i miss him terribly much .. I want to just hug him, I missed him a lot.. I miss his warm body. I am just a second away from calling him and driving to his house.. There for i have to make my self to go to bed ! to avoid all stupidities !

My food log is here :

Breakfast: Fiber fill cornflakes

Lunch: little rice salad

Dinner: little portion of rice fruits

good night ..

PS. tomorrow night i will be at cruse..

It´s night again..

I was wishing that today could pass by fast and it did ! With all my classes from morning to the end of the night, now i´m sitting at my desk, and try to find a way to start researching for my project rapport that would be finished by now..I really don´t know what can i do if it will not be finished until the morning.. oh gush please help me..

Today, when I drove back from my economic class, I drove to my luv´s home, I stopped at the street under his window, I watched his lamp and the silent room of his house, I really felt how silent it is.. I felt his loneliness, I was missing him a lot..But i just drove back to my place..

It´s hard to be patient.. I just hope that we can find back to each other..other way it would be too pity for us...

My daily food routine for today was:

Breakfast: Conflex with milk, half glass chocolate milk

Lunch: Spaghetti again :D salad yogurt

Dinner: fruits one peace of toast without anything on it

Snacks: one pre-lunch fiber bread
               Soft drink small non khameyi !
               coffee and one Cookie at night

After this weeks ends, i will just go to gym ! I'm so tired, my body needs it ! i really feel and miss working out, special spinning ( bicycle !)

Wish me luck every body !

What the F !!

I wrote a long text about today and all has disappeared !

That's totally strange !

then i cut the B.S and just write about my eating habit today :

Breakfast: One fiber bread two glass of chocolate milk

Lunch: spaghetti yummmi

Dinner: salad include tomato, rocola, javoneh, cucumber umm :)

Snacks: candies at 20pm

Good night

Oh ! i have been working and studying hard at uni until 9 Am till 19 that i came home, watching TV and eating dinner with family, and now i was trying to do my work for economic curse, that i discovered that my idiot teacher has not been accepting my assignment because of 1 hour delay ! so he wants me to do re-assignment again, and i have my deadline until tomorrow which is absolutely a chock for me ! because i have dozens of other deadlines to deliver !! The problem is he said himself that i was not a problem that if we sent it late, we would get just -0.5 in our grade !! what is he doing now ?? stressing me just

This blog is good, i can put out all my emotions, in my other blogs i can not do that !! every body knows me !! what the fuck :D

But back to my training Principe, i have been eating :

 Breakfast : one glass of milk black fiber bread f

Lunch: rice and fish

Dinner : Spaghetti

snackes: a cup of coffee with euwww cake !!
snacks before dinner: little pomes 4 little chicken wings ! both of them i hadn't eat for one years !!

oh i have to go back to my studying and its going to be late tonight !

And my love ?.. he hasn´t called or smsed me to know how am i doing.. i missed him for few short times today..I began read his sms in my mobile.. all of them were full of passions and it made me crying in silence rum at university :D

Hi !

I should actually wrote for all these days, when i was fighting my temptation in a week for not eating any chocolates but at the end of the weeks i just jumped and bought 3 kinds and eat them up :D

But i felt that i didn't move me enough to start log on my wait losing.

This week i will go to gym as much as i can, i have planed for Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Sunday :D it is lots of them, but i do it to see if i can make at least two of them.

Any way, today was really hard day for me, my boyfriend and i decided to go separately ,actually it was him who decided that for both of us and I'm quite mad on him. But i don't find any reason to fight with his decisions because it seems to be the right one, even if i would decide, i would give us more options and ways to stay in our love relation.

I felt really sad, and hurt broken, because he had promised he would never give up on us or abounding me. I understand him and not.. I just don´t think it would be a good idea to doing any thing about it at least right now. I feel it would be good for him to being for himself to understand the way my and my present had felt his life, and i have also feel it.

But it breaks my heart that he decided that.. I don't know if i can ever forget him for that or put my trust on him again.
I´m totally chocked by my owns reactions, i didn't cried at all ! i just got chocked by reading his blog, and the way he did end to us in public for readers who have been following us in more than 3 years.. it is so pity.. that he take away our chances.

When i was sitting in my room, confused about what is happening, I felt i had a few options to do, one of them going to his home, knocking on the door, shaking him hardly and make him realise that is not the right way to chose, other way was just let it be and let it be and...

After a while i just let time pass by and i just sat on my chair, and just stopped feeling sad .

I hope i will be as strong as today..i may give myself just few seconds of crying and pettiness but not more.. I simply don´t want to be with a boy who gives up on us.. it will make every things much more easier...

I would never give up on us baby, but if you chose to do that.. sorry for you.. you just lost the love of your dreams girls..

hello again !

I´ve been in university until 23:30 ! and now i´m home, sitting here uploading more than few picture to send for printing tomorrow for my valentines days gifts. I'm creating an album of my few past years with my love and our fun days and nights. I guess it would be a really nice present.

I´ve been surfing around the Internet that i totally forgot what i was going to write here, i post phone it until tomorrow-.

natti natti

Tonight, after seeing my winter semester picture for five sex years ago, and reading blog of few determined Iranian girl, i´ve decided to joining the groups and take action about my figure.

I can tell more about myself and my idea of perfect body later.

So gimme five every body :)